...is basically how I've been feeling the past two weeks. It's been very hard being here at home without my 2 week old baby boy in my arms. Leaving the hospital without him was one of the most difficult things I've ever had to do and it's been the longest two weeks of my life. I know he'll be home soon and I'm trying my best to keep my spirits up until he's home. I'm grateful that he's managed to pull through all of this beautifully. All of your prayers made certain of that. Thank you so much to everyone, for your emails, comments, letters and prayers. My family thanks you and our little Matthew thanks you.
Keeping busy with Bella and Elijah has helped keep me distracted from my sadness of not having their baby brother home. I've also had a few projects other than housework to keep me busy as well.
I started a baby blanket for Matthew about 1 week before his arrival and I'm almost finished with it! I'm an advanced beginner knitter, so don't expect anything too fancy to come from me in the way of knitting. Garter stitch? Check. No increases or decreases? Check. Easy peasy and right up my alley. There's something about the repetitive motion of simple knitting that I find relaxing and therapeutic. Working on this blanket has certainly helped me a great deal. But then I fell in love with the colors of the yarn and decided a baby quilt must be made to go with this blanket!
I got all but two of these prints from FabricWorm and I think they're all going to look beautiful together as a wee little quilt for my wee little boy. Oh! I almost forgot! Speaking of fabric, be sure to stay tuned to Sew, Mama, Sew this coming Wednesday. Dear Kristen has so graciously invited me to be a Guest Fat Quarter Pack Designer. I've put together 12 prints that totally turn my crank and they will be sold as a set in the Sew Mama Sew shop! Woot! *running man* Check out the previously featured designers: Amy Karol, Alicia Paulson, Hillary Lang, and Amanda Soule. All women I'd like to be when I grow up, so I'm thrilled to be included in such an awesome group of talents! I hope you like what I put together! So stay tuned!
So, Matthew's doing a lot better. He's recovering from his surgery well and should finally be home with us some time next week! He's also finally allowed to have mama's milk as of yesterday and I know he's thrilled because he's been on an IV since he was two days old.
(A little video of our bebe with the hiccups! ^_^)
Well, off to the hospital I go to see my dear bebe! Ciao bellas! ^_~
It just occurred to me that I haven't posted any pics of my babes in a while. So here we go! Some of my favorites from '08.
I think the 4th one is my favorite......Bella somehow managed to find a pen and proceeded to draw on every inch of her body with it. She came running out of her room and was so proud of what she had done. " Mommy! Looka me! Looka me!" ^_^
Thank you for all of your awesome comments from my last post. Those two mini me's are my joy of joys.
It's so funny because I was just busy taking shots of them with my phone. When we came home and I uploaded them, I just paused and thought to myself..."look at that....they love each other....wow." Sometimes you forget that little ones have those feelings too.
^_^ And for those of you wondering about Bella's coat, I bought it at Old Navy. It was the LAST one in the store. I had to hide it from these two ladies who were frantically trying to find them. I think they would have gnawed my limbs off to get it too. Sheesh.
I just went to the website and they have them there AND they're on sale! $25!! Size 6m - 5T! Run I tell you! Run! The coat is super cute....I wish they had them in my size. I wonder how many of those coats it would take to make one giant one for me?
....I had the greatest feeling of my life.
You don't think anything can top getting married to the love of your life. Then you have babies.....
And you don't think anything can beat that feeling either.
But when you realize that your children really and truly love each other......
I was pacing the house, packing my bag, taking a shower, anything to stop my so called false labor pains. Little did I know my baby boy would make his entrance into this world less than 2 hours later.
Happy first birthday mon petite bebe!
Tu es ma raison de vivre, le bonheur de ma vie.
Mommy loves you!
See anything wrong with this picture?
Well, the problem here my friends is that this hallway typically has two little toddlers playing and running in it. My pumpkins started Summer daycare today. I'm so sad. I miss my babies, but it is a necessary evil. I need time to work on the book and it's just impossible to do with them here. I honestly feel like the worst mommy in the world today. I'm so sad. The apartment is so quiet and I'm still not quite sure what to do with myself. I've got lot's to do, but this first day..........*sigh*....It's just really been hard for me to find some sort of rhythm. It's a very different feeling for me, because they're with strangers and not my mom or Mel's mom. *sobs* Anyhoo, time will make it better.
On a lighter note......Elijah got so excited when he saw the other children at daycare today. Mel was holding him and put him down on the floor so that he could stand...........my little man took off walking!!!
Woohooo! \^O^/ *moonwalks*